she looks so good in red

dollxface138 @ 2007-06-03T15:10:00

2007-06-03T22:30:46Z

Its been awhile...
I've been living in Downtown Fullerton with my husband since Feb. I love my place. For about the past month I have been the receptionist at this awesome salon down the street from me. I love it.
Hopefully I will be accepted into the mortuary science program over at Cypress College for next spring. Its going to be hard work but worth it in the end.
I kept cutting my hair off during my 2 months of straight depression when things were really rocky. I was able to channel it into something productive though and I'm glad that we made it through that. I need the monchichi to start growing out now.
Lately I have been so worried that something bad is going to happen to my husband. Friday night I started thinking about how much I love him and that I would seriously die if anything happened to him.
My cat Boris (mommy's little guy) has been bringing around another stray who I've been calling Chococat. He's beginning to warm up to me and even meow's now if he sees me.
I will have been married 7 months on the 9th. I never knew that I could have so much patience and admiration for another person. I use to be so selfish and now I have none of those feeelings inside me anymore. I dont know.
The timer on the computer says I have to get off now. I ♥ the library!

dollxface138 @ 2006-11-06T17:52:00

2006-11-07T01:52:38Z

SInce I never write in here I thought I would give a quick update....

BY this time next month I should be fully moved in with my parents, if not fully then lik 95% of the way there. I will then only have to deal with Brandt when he comes to pick up his daughter. I am so thankful my parents are letting me move back. I've had so many nervous breakdowns in the past 2 months.
The only thing keeping me going is my boyfriend ♥ and knowing I can soon start my life all over again next month from scratch.
Even though I've only been dating Roland for a little over month he has still been my light at the end of this dark dark tunnel. He came into mylife at the perfect time. I dont take meeting him and having him in my life lightly at all. This is the only picture I have us right now.

Bella still isnt talking all that much so shes been in speech therapy the past few months. I feel like its my fault. I really hope she starts talking soon. Other than that shes so smart. I can talk to her all day long and shes gets what I'm saying and she will listen to me, its just she doesnt want to vocalize.
She was a cowgirl for Halloween. It was sooo cute!!

Her little boot cover is messed up in that picture...oh well.

I guess thats about it....
oh yea.. why was it 84 today in Seal Beach in Novemeber??!!

dollxface138 @ 2006-03-16T23:38:00

2006-03-17T07:43:41Z

I made a new journal and im not going to be using this one anymore.
My ex likes to stalk me online so, dont find me..ill find you =)
♥

dollxface138 @ 2006-03-15T11:02:00

2006-03-15T19:08:04Z

Will someone please give me a ride to Tucson? Thanks...

yea...

2006-03-04T20:27:11Z

So I have strep throat, a kidney infection and Mr. Betta Fish passed on to the other side. I feel like crap so I'm not going to be around for awhile. I'm at my moms house getting rest and help with my little monster.
See y'all later! <33

dollxface138 @ 2006-03-01T14:24:00

2006-03-01T22:40:36Z

I havent really updated in awhile. I've been in Seal Beach since Sunday. I cant decide if it's temporary or not. Things still are and will always be up in the air I think. Unless something major happens.
Its freeeezing in my house right now!
Bella and I almost went on a walk today, but I got too lazy =/

♥

dollxface138 @ 2006-02-22T01:10:00

2006-02-22T09:15:04Z

Last night I went to Blue Mondays. I went with my friend Daniel. I love going to places like that with him because I have a boy I can dance with who I know wont try to hump my leg and also I odnt have to babysit him like I do some people I hang out with.
I cut my hair and I really like it alot. its easier to curl and maintain.
I've been at my parents house since saturday. I love it here. Tonight is going to be the first night I go to sleep early. =)

Saturday night I went and saw some cannibal movie. It was horrible. Then I hung out with Tony who I hadnt seen in awhile, outside of seeing his band play last month. We went to the Lucky Tiki. I had fun with him.

goodnight

dollxface138 @ 2006-02-15T11:48:00

2006-02-15T19:53:37Z

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Extreme
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Moderate
Level 7 (Violent)	Extreme
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Very High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

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Happy Valentines Day

2006-02-14T23:35:24Z

i told you right from the start.
a knife up to your throat for one put through my heart.
couldn't hold on and this i should've known.
thinking back as i walk the night alone.
i told you that my love was true.
i asked you to walk away if you don't feel like i do.
you whispered that you would be mine always.
i felt myself slipping away.
i love you forever, 'til death do us part.
night gives no rest and i cannot sleep.
when i can i see your face, it's tattooed on my dreams.
purple heart pumps sorrow through my veins.
i awaken, i'm calling out your name.
i often think back to that night... the moment when i found out that our love was a lie.
felt like i would die, i couldn't stand the pain.
and there's nothing left except one thing, i've gotta see you again.
i love you forever, 'til death do us part.
forever is over, forever is over.
it's over, it's over, it ended on that night... that i took your fucking life.
--Tiger Army

dollxface138 @ 2006-02-10T01:26:00

2006-02-10T09:31:02Z

You are like a fish out of water....
You always seem to slip out of my hands....

dollxface138 @ 2006-02-02T22:45:00

2006-02-03T06:50:16Z

She always finds a way to make my heart smile again

dollxface138 @ 2006-01-30T14:53:00

2006-01-30T22:58:05Z

I just got dumped over a text message.

awesome.

But I cant find the words to tell you....

2006-01-29T08:05:40Z

Last night I went to a show, but I missed Tony's band. I felt horrible about it. I lied to him and told him I caught some of it and I loved it. I hate being a bad friend.
Today I went to 4th st. in Long Beach. One of the vintage stores is hiring so I'm dropping off my resume tomorrow. I would kill for the job.
Lately I've been in this emotional rut. I guess I wasnt as prepared as I thought I was to leave Brandt. I kinda hit the ground running. I keep moving in and out of the place I had with him. I don't know what the hell I am doing anymore. I feel so bad for Bella being shuttled around all the time.
I've been losing alot of weight recently. Like all my baby weight I gained. I'm starting to fit into some of my dresses and jeans. Thank you depression.
I seriously dont understand people sometimes. Recently everyone has just been letting me down, but I guess what eles is new right? I invest so much emotions in the wrong people. I hate being told that you promise you will call me back but get too drunk to rmemeber to make the stupid phone call. Whats even worse is just how upset I get. I guess it comes with being a dumb girl. Maybe I just take things like too personally, I need to relax and worry about more important things.
I think I need a hobby so I dont have the time to sit around and over think things.

dollxface138 @ 2006-01-26T10:13:00

2006-01-26T18:24:44Z

CRASH PRESENTS
ROCKABILLY BY THE SEA
friday: jan 27th
at
J.King Neptunes
starting the night off:
crash
then in their very first show: TONY JAMES AND THE JAMESONS
followed by: the cowtippers
finishing the night off:
rory justice and his ubangi rockers

j king neptunes
17115 Pacific Coast Hwy
Sunset Beach, Ca 92647
$5 cover((THATS RIGHT 5$$ 4 BANDS)))
Show starts a 9pm sharp
Full bar/Great grub
Fun folks focused on havin fun!!
Call ahead for age restrictions, ask for
Juan@562-592-4878(THIS IS A MUST IF YOUR UNDER 21)

It's been forever since I've seen Tony. It will be nice to go out this friday.
I love my daughter with all my heart but sometimes I dont know...

dollxface138 @ 2006-01-20T18:29:00

2006-01-21T02:51:01Z

I feel really horrible saying this..but I love my life so much better without Brandt in it.

Hopefully this weekend I'll be getting my ticket for this show

That should be so much fun. Hopefully I can talk Donnie into coming out here for the show!

Heres a picture from last night with my "little brother" Jerrick

I'm trying to get a job hopefully by next week I can get one!

dollxface138 @ 2006-01-16T10:42:00

2006-01-16T18:43:22Z

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I guess nomore trip to Alabama for my friend and me. I dont get why people are so freakin weird!

dollxface138 @ 2006-01-15T17:56:00

2006-01-16T02:04:23Z

I'm back in the valley. I hung out with Janice and my friend Daniel last night. We went to some weird party. Daniel and I left and went to The Lucky Tiki bar, that was lame so we went to Johnnys.

Janice and I have been planning a vacation. She is my most favorite person to be around. Me and her get drunk off each other. I guess being friends for like 15 years helps.

I've been in a horrible mood lately. Everyone just lets me down.

UGHHHH

2006-01-11T01:03:55Z

Your Social Dysfunction:
Schizotypal

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I'm going to be moving back into my parents house for awhile. Brandt went too far last night. I'm so tired of all of this.
As much as I love to be getting out of here and back to the valley, I'm totally going to miss my little place so close to the beach =(

lucite

2006-01-06T22:22:22Z

Today I went out and decided I would treat myself and buy this lucite purse I had checked out a few times at this antique store near me. It cost me 70 bucks.

I came home and looked up lucite purses to see if I could find anything out about the purse I just bought and I found this.

http://www.bakeliteboutique.com/items/102302/dscn2739.htm .

Needless to say, I'm in a good mood

10 layers

2006-01-03T06:21:46Z

10 LAYERS OF ME

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Marina Marie Aguilar
Birth date: December 21st
Birth place: Van Nuys, CA
Current Location: Seal Beach, CA
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: blue black
Righty or Lefty: righty
Zodiac Sign: sagittarius

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: mexican and white
What Shoes Did You Wear Today: black creepers
Your weakness: i forgive too easily
Your fears: being alone, not accomplishing anything in life, being a bad mother
Your perfect pizza: pineapple and black olives
Goal you'd like to achieve: to go back to school and be able to support my daughter on my own

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY
Your thoughts first waking up: ugh what time is it?
Your best physical feature: I don't think I have any
Your bedtime: usually around 11
Your most missed memory: being little and carefree

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonald's or Burger King: mcdonalds
Single or group dates: single
Adidas or Nike: neither
Lipton Tea or Nestea: nestea
Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: no
Cuss: not around bella
Single: yeah
Take a shower: all the time
Have a crush(es): i dont have time for those
Think you've been in love: yeah
Like(d) high school: yeah
Want to get married: yeah some day when i find the right person
Do you believe in yourself?: not really
Get motion sickness: sometimes
Think you're a health freak: haha no
Get along with your parents: yeah

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: yeah
Gone on a date: no
Gone to the mall: yeah
Been on stage: no
Eaten Sushi: no =(
Been dumped: no
Gone skating: no
Gone skinny dippin: no
Dyed your hair: yeah, twice

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a game that required removal of clothing: no
Gotten beaten up: no
changed who you were to fit in: nope

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER
Age you hope to be married: 25
Numbers of Children: 1
Describe your dream wedding: huge
How do you want to die: I dont know
What country would you most like to visit: Japan

LAYER NINE: IN A GAL/GUY
Best eye color?: i dont know
Best hair color?: I like black
Short or long hair: doesnt matter
Height: taller then me, but then again who isnt!?
Articles of clothing: well put together

LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS
Number of people i can trust: 1
Number of CD's I own: I've never counted
Number of piercings: 4
Number of tattoos: 9
Number of times been on T.V: 1
Number of times my name has appeared in the Newspaper: 1
number of scars on my body: too many....
Number of big things in my past that I regret: too many...

Its been awhile.....

2005-12-29T09:40:32Z

I'm almost done moving into my new place. I really like living here. So much has gone on in the past week...

Last wednesday (the 21st) was my 21st birthday. I was in a really bad mood. Every year on my birthday I get really depressed and cry becasue I think about everything that I've done and didnt do in the past year and I feel like such a loser.
Brandt picked me up from my moms house where I had been and brought me back to Orange County and I dropped off the baby at his moms house. We went over and saw Keith and I got a new tattoo. I got a rose with a banner that says "bella". It came out sooooooo good. I'll post a pic of it later.
Went home and got dressed and Victoria came over and the 4 of us (me, Victoria, Keith and Brandt) all went over to Johnnys in H.B. so we could celebrate. Long story short I got really messed up and blacked out. I came too for aboout 3 minutes in the car driving home, then I woke up the next morning in bed in just my underwear. haha. I was soooo confused and I guess Victoria had dropped me when they were dragging me into my apartment and I smashed my head on Bellas highchair and it still hurts. I have briuses all over my legs where I kept falling.
My birthday wasnt one of my finer moments =/
I slept all of the 22nd.

Christmas was alright. It was my first year ever away from my parents. I was down here in OC. We had to spend it with his Mom and step dad and then got over to his Dad and step moms house. After it was all over with Bella looked like she was going to have a melt down hahaha. poor baby.
I got alot of neat gifts.....
-- giftcards to Sephora, Target, some nail place
-- a leopard print make up case and new brushes
-- some benefit make up, including thier perfume =)
-- money
-- Brandt still has to take me shopping for my present,, I'll probably get some Barkcloth so I can make some curtains for my new place

Thats all I can really think of right now. I'm kinda tired...
I've been heartbroken since monday when my Mom came and got the baby. I'm going insane without her =(

Since I've moved into my new place I'm developing a huge fear of the celing caving in on me. Like everytime I hear the celing creek or anything my heart starts racing and I get so stressed out. Today I even put my hands up in fear when i heard the creeking. Its so stupid and I wish it would stop but its only getting worse. I always think things are just going to fall on me or if I'm walking down stairs I think they are going to collapse with me on them.
I need help.

taco surf

2005-12-08T18:35:40Z

Last night Brandt and I signed the final papers for our new place and got the keys. I'm pretty excited about my new place.
I won this last night for my new place

I get to pick it up on saturday.
I just have to find a cute lamp to put on it, but all i find is ugly lamps on ebay. Guess I'm not looking with the right key words.
I had one a 1930s bakelite phone last week but after I won it the lady wrote to tell me that she didnt even have the phone..I was like uhh hahah. ok. Then put it up? Oh well.
I wish I knew how to drive so I could go shopping. I have to work on that!!
I'm going to be pretty bummed though when I move becasue I wont see Victoria as much as I do. Her and her husband are trying to get a house in old towne Orange, which I guess will be kinda close to my new place, but I wont get to see her like everyday =(

Well back to packing ♥

dollxface138 @ 2005-12-01T08:22:00

2005-11-30T17:12:33Z

Its been awhile since I've updated. So much has gone on...

Brandt and I signed the lease to a cute apartment in Seal Beach like 3 blocks from the beach. Walks during the day with Bella are going to be so nice now. And the neighborhood is so quiet and cute. There is a little street that has a ton of cute shops on it and a pretty sweet antique shop. I'm very happy with it. It's like 3 minutes from Brandts work too.

I took Isabella to get some holiday pictures taken. This is one of them from the little photo shoot hahaha

I have to go pick them up on the 7th and then send out my christmas cards.

Friday night I sold some clips at the Mad Sin show. I only sold 4 pairs, but I guess that is better than no pairs. I mostly wanted to get my name out there.
I packed up early so I could watch Mad Sin. I ended up standing in the very front with Sean. It had been forever since I'd seen him let alone like hang out with him. It was really nice and things weren't awkward or anything.

My new pencil skirt came in the mail yesterday.

It's too small so I have to return it, but it's from the UK so it's going to be a hassle.
ugh. I need a new black pencil skirt so bad since Brandt ruined my other one.

My birthday is in 2 weeks. I'm going to be 21 yay. Not like I really drink anymore or anything.
I've been working on a gift registry at Sephora since no in my family never knows what to give me
http://www.sephora.com/registry/list.jhtml?giftlistId=gl288409644
I also have one at Benefit ♥

That's about it...
Ashleigh call me about Deke...I still want to go!!

yo

2005-11-22T18:08:48Z

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and I. It can be anything you want- good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

my shoe was talking

2005-11-01T18:37:23Z

http://www.endofworld.net/
Brandt just sent me that. Pretty funny.

Ashleigh came over yesterday! I hope she had fun. Bella was really extra whiney yesterday, poor baby is still getting her teeth.
We ate pizza and hot wings, watched (sorta) bad scary movies, made some hair clips, listen to bella whine (aww), put her in her costume, kinda carved pumpkins, saw a HUGE spider on my balcony, and I think that was about it. I missed her!!

Bella did really well when we took her out. I took my friend Victoria along with me.
I put some pictures up on my myspace thing ( www.myspace.com/dollxface )

This past weekend brandt and I went house/apartment hunting.
We looked at belmont shores and a cute part of seal bach.
I think I found a house in old town orange which would be awesome.

♥ kbye